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ObamaÂ’s Potemkin Military Reception=No Scandal; Troops Plan Who Will Take What Questions From Bush=Huge Scandal
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My husband left this morning for a week of training (marksmanship camp...no fair!) and my mother leaves Wednesday. I will be back online like my normal self after that.
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I doubt Obama's reception is the first one I would consider 'staged'. One
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Since he is their CIC, I don’t think the Armed Forces want any bad PR and am not surprised if the military had a hand in screening soldiers. And to be “fair” to President Obama, I’ve heard it said that a similar screening process happened during President Bush’s troop visit(s). I can’t substantiate it, but it came from a blue star mom whose son told her (they are politically to the left, but I don’t really have reason to doubt her on it). Why risk a politically embarrassing “shoe moment” if you can take measures to avoid it? These are politicians, after all, and I doubt this is anything unique in the annals of American politics.
As John Lennon wrote, "Nothing is real" ... especially on TV.
Many watching the chat with Bush would have assumed the whole thing was spontaneous without any divvying up of the questions behind the scenes. I think the distinction between the two involves a matter of degree. Where would the readers of this site draw the line?
What offends me most about the Obama reception is the allegation of handOuts - cameras given to those who said they voted for Obama. Did any Bush reception have such gifts reserved for W-supporters?
Posted by: Amritas at April 13, 2009 12:17 PM (+nV09)
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Amritas -- I don't really care if they stage the things, because that commenter is right that the Pres wants to avoid a 'shoe moment' at all costs, but my beef is with the media's reporting of the events. Remember the huge dustup that George Bush held up a fake turkey? He's a huge faker! Only it was a real turkey...a correction which never got made as forcefully. Obama stages his trip to the troops, and the reporters eat it up. Bush gives a list of questions to his group ahead of time, and he's forcefeeding the troops canned answers to make himself look good. THAT's the part I have a problem with.
Posted by: Sarah at April 14, 2009 06:35 AM (TWet1)
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Sarah,
What do you think the media should have reported in all three cases? Would it be OK if the media pointed out all these things are staged? That's what I'd want the media to do. I want to know what is and isn't real.
Suppose you were a reporter and your sources told you the turkey was fake. Would you report that? What if it was Obama holding up the allegedly fake turkey? I bet the Rightosphere would behave exactly the way the lamestream media did when the turkey turned out to be real.
I take media bias as a given, so I focus on the staging itself instead of the reporters hiding or distorting it. How much staging is too much?
I have no interest in dog and pony shows. This is why I almost never watch TV 'news'. I hate propaganda.
Posted by: Amritas at April 14, 2009 11:24 AM (+nV09)
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I guess it depends on the definition of "staged." Picking out people who won't throw a shoe at you is one thing; handing them all cameras is another, I think.
I bet you can guess
how I feel about wanting to know the questions ahead of time! I don't think it's out of line to set up a panel of soldiers and then let them know what questions might be coming. Or to have them decide "SGT A is most knowledgeable about X, so he should answer that, and SGT B should answer Y" etc.
If Bush OR Obama had held up a fake turkey and *pretended* to serve the soldiers, and it got reported as real, that would be bogus. (Like the Sean Penn photos of him "rescuing people" from Katrina...with a cameraman in his boat.) But in the Bush case, it was a real turkey and he really did serve the soldiers. That story got all twisted around and made him look bad. But Obama picks out the people who love him, gives them all cameras, and then goes "Gosh, they all love me!" And the reporters report, "Gosh, they all love him." Ugh.
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April 12, 2009
THE ROLE OF GOVERNMENT, OR THIS IS TOO HARD OF A POST TO WRITE
So many people did such a good job of answering
Sis B's question. I concur with the fundamentals of what they said (and I would settle for a school voucher system any day as opposed to the soup sandwich we currently have.)
Any discussion of what I think the role of government is would have to include talk of rights. I believe we have inalienable rights to life, liberty, freedom of speech, freedom to assemble, etc. Those are rights to be left alone. To not be meddled with. To live and let live. We need a system of government when our community gets too big to handle as an individual, but the role of government ought ideally to be to protect our right not to be meddled with.
My husband and I love watching the series Deadwood. You can see on this show the evolution of government: Jack McCall kills Wild Bill, and then, aw crap, now we have to have a trial instead of just stringing him up. And then maybe it would be a good idea to have a sheriff and so on. You see these people who moved West to be left alone now being forced to create a government of sorts as the community gets bigger. And they downright resent it. Seth and Saul wanted to move West to open a hardware store, so they bought land, erected a building, and started selling boots and pans. They didn't need a permit, they didn't need a building inspection, they didn't have to belong to a guild or pay union dues; they just set to work filling a need in the camp: hardware. Can you imagine what they'd think if they saw what has to be done to start a business today?
I'm not saying life was better in every way back then, but Deadwood illustrates the gradual relinquishing of complete individuality and the loaning, if you will, of some of your rights to an authority. People entrusted the sheriff with their right to life and their right to justice. In return, the sheriff mediated their disputes (most notably between Hostetler and Steve the Drunk. Which was enough to make you wish you didn't live under the rule of law, so you could choke that hooplehead Steve out and be done with it.)
I liked CaliValleyGirl's analogy of government as a home owner's association. We in the United States have entrusted our government with some of our rights. We are too big to defend ourselves individually, so we entrust them with our national defense. We needed a system of interstate roads, so we entrust our motorways to them. But I personally think that what we now entrust our government to do goes way beyond promoting the general welfare.
Broadly speaking, I think the difference between the left and right is that the left wants to entrust more things to the government. I think they see our country as one big family. In my family, I have a crappy little job where I make about $75 per week. My husband makes more than that in a day. But all our money goes into the same bank account, and I am allowed to spend whatever I think is prudent on clothes or yarn or books. My husband does not restrict my spending to only what I make, because we are a family and we love each other. And sometimes I think that the left sees our country as an extension of a family, where the person who makes $75 per week is entitled to the same equality of result as the person who makes $7500. I think that's illustrated by Lileks' Parable of the Stairs story about his tax refund:
“I think the money should have gone straight to those people instead of trickling down.” Those last two words were said with an edge.
“But then I wouldn’t have hired them,” I said. “I wouldn’t have new steps. And they wouldn’t have done anything to get the money.”
“Well, what did you do?” she snapped.
“What do you mean?”
“Why should the government have given you the money in the first place?”
“They didn’t give it to me. They just took less of my money.”
That was the last straw. Now she was angry. And the truth came out:
“Well, why is it your money? I think it should be their money.”
What I see is that James Lileks made that money and he should be able to use it to build stairs to improve his home. But this Democrat canvasser thought it should've all gone into the collective national bank account and then been doled out based on who needed it.
On the same note, after she wrote this post, CaliValleyGirl elaborated on the theme in an email. She wrote:
I mean, imagine you are walking down the street with my dad and you meet someone who asks you for money. And you say sure, and slip your hand into my fatherÂ’s pocket, take his wallet, take out a $20, give it to the guy, and now you feel good, because you helped that person. But really, YOU didnÂ’t help that person.
This, to echo back to Sis B, is the left-wing mindset that I will never understand. Why should the stair money belong to all of us? Why should anyone be entitled to the fruits of Lileks' labor? And how do people justify taking money out of CaliValleyDad's pocket and giving it away to people who didn't earn it? (A question which, sadly, CaliValleyGirl never seemed to get an answer on.) The United States is not one big collective family with a shared bank account. It was never meant to be that. I don't know why we've drifted towards that; I find it maddening. I don't need to be Deadwood, but I don't want to be what we are right now.
I have heard Sean Hannity do man-on-the-street interviews with young people, asking them what people have the right to. Most of them quite readily agree that people have the right to shelter, food, education, transportation, and health care. I firmly believe that the government should grant none of those things as a right. In order for a penniless person to have any of those things, the government has to take Lileks' stair money and give it away. The role of government should be limited to enforcing the laws that protect our inalienable rights: the laws that prevent someone from coming into Lileks' house to steal his stair money, the laws that ensure that the contractor who builds the stairs will face justice if he doesn't fulfill his contract, and the laws that protect Lileks' right to defend his family should anyone step foot onto that staircase to do them harm. The government's role, in my opinion, has nothing whatsoever to do with whether or not Lileks should get to have the stairs in the first place. If he earned the money for them, he gets them; he shouldn't have to relinquish his stair money so that other families can feed their kids or have a house.
Leonard Peikoff says it well in a speech I read back in 2000, a speech that resonated with me instantly and which obviously became a part of my knowing. I didn't realize how closely I'd echoed it nine years later in the beginning of this post until I googled it to quote here:
The term "rights," note, is a moral (not just a political) term; it tells us that a certain course of behavior is right, sanctioned, proper, a prerogative to be respected by others, not interfered with -- and that anyone who violates a man's rights is: wrong, morally wrong, unsanctioned, evil.
Now our only rights, the American viewpoint continues, are the rights to life, liberty, property, and the pursuit of happiness. That's all. According to the Founding Fathers, we are not born with a right to a trip to Disneyland, or a meal at Mcdonald's, or a kidney dialysis (nor with the 18th-century equivalent of these things). We have certain specific rights -- and only these.
Why only these? Observe that all legitimate rights have one thing in common: they are rights to action, not to rewards from other people. The American rights impose no obligations on other people, merely the negative obligation to leave you alone. The system guarantees you the chance to work for what you want -- not to be given it without effort by somebody else.
When I talk about Our Gulch, when I reference Fight or Flee, I am talking about my people. My tribe, as Whittle would say. And the people I want in my Gulch, they all have this same definition of rights. Most people I am friends with have this definition; most of the bloggers I read share it too. It seems to me that we are numerous. So to me, the interesting part of Sis B's question is this:
I think that part of what mystifies me about it is the vast chasm between what I hear regular conservatives saying they believe and the type of government that has been established under the guise of conservativism the past 8 years.
I am equally mystified by this. If everyone I know feels like I do about rights and the role of government, why don't we ever have a government that suits us?
I think the answer lies in compromise. My tribe was mad that Pres Bush was soft on immigration and that he signed the prescription drug plan. Many in my tribe were mad about the marriage amendment as well. I also remember vividly in 2004 when Bush won and said he was going to privatize Social Security. I couldn't believe my ears and was thrilled beyond belief. But it didn't pan out. The federal government is one whopping compromise where no one ends up happy with the result.
And it's not just Republicans who embody this chasm. Remember how Pres Clinton
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Which is why I agree with Mrs du Toit and CaliValleyGirl that politics should be local, and that we ought to live in gulches. Another fundamental belief I have about the workings of government is that it should vary by locality. There should be very few federal laws; most things should be left up to the states, and then you could live in the state that you feel best represents your worldview. It would be far easier to get one of 50 states to suit you than it is to get the entire country to. People pay far too much attention to federal elections and lawmaking.
Towards the end, Sis B adds:
But when this election was done and the Republican party had its collective ass handed to it, my first thought was, "I hope that this allows the party to get back to the fundamentals of its beliefs and that they re-emerge in four or eight years with a strong, coherent platform." Seriously. I want the conservatives to get back to their roots and come back strong.
I don't see that happening.
I think I disagree with her. I think four years of President Obama will be plenty to make people in the center lurch rightward. And I hope we see a resurgence of conservative/libertarian principles on the national stage. I want Republicans to stop their pandering and quit trying to be Democrat Lite. I want to be the party of tough love. I want to be the party of individual responsibility. I want to vote for someone who denies the Democrats their premises. But, you'll remember, I was not a McCain supporter from the beginning. I supported Fred Thompson, who was far closer to my ideal politician than what I ended up having to vote for. Not perfect, but as close as it probably gets. (I don't imagine we could ever get away with President Z.)
So, at the risk of sounding like Forrest Gump, I guess that's all I have to say about that. Sis B has now asked her Democrat readers to explain their side. If you are interested in this exchange of ideas, keep your eyes on this post and the comments.
For additional reading about the role of government from people whose brains work far better than mine, check out Mrs du Toit's The Day Liberty Died (via Amritas) and den Beste's Citizen Soldier.
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Funny, I would label myself a "liberal" - note the lack of capital letter. This is the best definition I could find as to why that word fits:
favorable to or in accord with concepts of maximum individual freedom possible
So I don't feel that Sarah's view of government is all that different from mine. Let folks do what they want to do - don't impose your religion, don't tell me what marriage means, don't go crying to Washington over what happens in your backyard, take care of your own business, etc. Seems to make sense to me. I find it curious that most people who deride liberals seem to believe that all of them want the government to do everything for them - some certainly do, but not all of them. Many people label themselves "liberal" because they want to be left the hell alone by other people.
Frankly, I don't see the Dems or the Republicans supporting this ideal at all. Both are pretty far from it. Granted, maybe that's our fault. We make hunger, education, finance and all types of other social/personal issues a political issue and what can a politician do about them short of legislating and making it a Washington problem?
Great post - thanks
Posted by: Sarah's Pinko Commie Friend at April 12, 2009 02:55 PM (4bitt)
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Pinko -- I have seen many bloggers that I consider on "my" side use the small-l liberal designation. Like in a "taking it back" way.
Posted by: Sarah at April 12, 2009 03:10 PM (TWet1)
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As in, "its cool, I'm taking it back!"
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Nice
Posted by: Sarah's Pinko Commie Friend at April 12, 2009 04:23 PM (4bitt)
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Pinko -- I just knew you would get my Randal reference...
Incidentally, I should've commented about your last paragraph. Excellent point. Why do we focus so much on social issues during the campaign: I don't want the government hand on any of those things.
So what I want to know is this: Do you think Obama's "leaving people the hell alone"? I know you favored him over McCain; are you happy about his policies so far? Because to me, taking the reins of the banks and car companies is pretty freaking far from leaving us alone. I think it's a major entwining of government and business. What do you think?
Posted by: Sarah at April 13, 2009 02:44 AM (TWet1)
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Excellent post Sarah. It's hard to explain each of our individual belief systems but I think you and CVG did an excellent job of it. People seem to forget about states rights and how they were the foundation of everything. If you want to live in state that honors gay marriage then you can move to one that does. However people don't want to be uprooted from their own community, so they just attempt to change their communities collective mind. If the community doesn't like that idea then the person might say well let's make it a national law, so then I don't have to be inconvenienced by moving.
I consider myself conservative but have some very socially liberal ideas. I believe in a woman's right to choice to control her own body. I believe that all children in our country have a right (yes, strong word I know) to a decent education and free health care. I don't mind my taxes going to pay for education and health care because in the end it makes our country stronger and more competitive in a global market. Some conservatives don't agree with me and that's ok. I respect their opinions because they are educated on the issues or have strong moral beliefs.
Which brings me to a point. One of the reason's I dislike Liberal ideology even though I am slightly liberal myself, is that most of the people I speak with don't seem entirely clear on what they believe. It's just seems to be this blanket idea of everyone should be taken care of. Everyone has a right to everything to make them comfortable in life. This ideology is something that seems to be fostered in the PUBLIC school system. Which is why so many people these days choose to home school. If the liberal side doesn't want prayer in schools because of the 'separation of church and state' (NOT a RIGHT granted in the constitution by the way, but read as an INTENTION by Thomas Jefferson in a letter he wrote) then quit stuffing another ideology down the kids throats. It's an idea of entitlement that bothers me. No one ever said life was going to be fair.
The other thing I take issue with is the vitriol that is spewed by both the liberal and conservative sides. Name calling won't help. The original post asked for no name calling, however there was still a jab at the other side when she said that 'But when this election was done and the Republican party had its collective ass handed to it,' I call bullshit on that. Obama received 52.9% and McCain received 45.7% Hardly a landslide sweetheart.
I don't think Obama is going to have 8 years of governing. He has shown so far that he does not in fact have the experience needed for the job. He election galvanized many conservative-lite people into becoming more involved in their local governments and say, no more, lets change this.
Posted by: Mare at April 13, 2009 03:55 AM (TWet1)
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Tomorrow I will be sending out my first quarterly estimated tax payment for this year. I am self-employed, so I self-deduct my taxes, and actually notice how much of my money is being siphoned away. And what struck me was that my federal tax payment was nearly 10x that of my state tax payment. And I thought how wrong that isÂ…it should be the other way around. Why are we sending so much money to Washington, when supposedly WashingtonÂ’s job is to send it back to us? Why donÂ’t we keep it in our states, and send a minimal amount to the federal government? I just donÂ’t get it.
Mare, I agree with you on the public education thing, but I would argue that it's not a right. I would say, like you did, it's just a smart thing to do as a nation and makes us stronger. A good education takes care of a lot of problems...problems we still have in this country, so I feel we are failing ourselves in that way, because we aren't giving public school children that good education.
Posted by: CaliValleyGirl at April 13, 2009 05:20 AM (irIko)
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I know 'right' is a strong word in this case. But my thought process is that the system already exists. We are already paying for it. Ultimately if we want people to take personal responsibility for their own lives and not need the help of the federal gov't then we must give them the tools to succeed. Education is the key to that.
And I used the word 'decent' very specifically. It does not have to be perfect. It has to get the job done to prepare kids for either college, the military or a trade. What they do after that is up to them.
Then again, education is not a something guarnteed in the Bill of Rights.
Just my 2 cents, your mileage may vary
Posted by: Mare at April 13, 2009 06:53 AM (y9A8i)
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I know 'right' is a strong word in this case. But my thought process is that the system already exists. We are already paying for it. Ultimately if we want people to take personal responsibility for their own lives and not need the help of the federal gov't then we must give them the tools to succeed. Education is the key to that.
And I used the word 'decent' very specifically. It does not have to be perfect. It has to get the job done to prepare kids for either college, the military or a trade. What they do after that is up to them.
Then again, a right to an education is not something guaranteed in the Bill of Rights nor do I think we need an Amendment to make it so.
Just my 2 cents, your mileage may vary
Posted by: Mare at April 13, 2009 06:54 AM (y9A8i)
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"So what I want to know is this: Do you think Obama's "leaving people the hell alone"? I know you favored him over McCain; are you happy about his policies so far? Because to me, taking the reins of the banks and car companies is pretty freaking far from leaving us alone. I think it's a major entwining of government and business. What do you think?"
Well, I don't really know what to think about government intervention in business/economy. As a business owner, I believe pretty strongly that perception is reality in the market. So I sometimes feel (perhaps selfishly) that whatever it takes to turn people's attitudes around makes me happy. Granted, the idea of giving money to failed businesses bugs me a ton.
I'm not sure how I feel about him so far. Know this, I don't consider this guy the second coming. I think that most people can agree that he is an "interesting" fellow. I like him (hey, I like McCain too) and I'm interested to see what he does. I like the fact that he hasn't rushed the pull out in Iraq, because I'm not in favor of leaving till the job is done. Granted, I'm not sure that anyone agrees on what "the job" is anymore. But I think he'll temper some of the issues that liberals are wrong about.
But I also think he believes he or policy can "fix" everything. I don't believe for a second that the government (or either party) is responsible for the housing industry debacle - I blame the banking industry pure and simple. Now, they didn't cause it, but can they fix it? And if they can, what precedent does that set going forward? I think that most of us want the American Economy to be strong, and I don't have enough economic education to believe that the free market will automagically right itself for the best without interference.
So to answer your question, I don't really know. If it works then I'm happy as a business owner. As a felow armchair quarterbacking the oval office I feel more inclined to complain about the intentions but admit that I don't have the expertise to provide a better answer.
I still like Obama, I think its interesting to see how he'll deal with his early-term issue. I thought Bush did a great job with 911, even if I thought he botched some other stuff. But 911 was something that could be handled "right" and he was in a position to do something. I'm not sure that the president should be doing something at all, or whether or not the president has a "right" thing in his arsenal at all.
I would have been interested to see what McCain would have done with regards to the economy. I'm not regretting my choice of vote yet (with regards to the economy anyway).
does that backpedal make any sense?
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Oh, to actually have a party of tough love and individual responsibility. If we are ever able to make that the
entire platform of the republican party, I will be thrilled.
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April 11, 2009
HARMFUL?
I had to work this afternoon demonstrating another science kit. This one was aimed for four year olds, so it was pretty basic. But the kids seemed to have fun.
I thought of this recent Joanne Jacobs' post (via Amritas) while I was there. I was looking over the other science kits on display, and the one for the kids aged 8+ had a warning label: "This set contains chemicals that may be harmful if misused." On the back of the box was the list of contents: gelatin, sugar, baking yeast, and food coloring.
Now I freely admit that chemistry was my weakest subject in school, but I'm having a hard time figuring out a combination of those contents that could be harmful. Am I missing something? Or is this an example of warning labels gone wild?
It's a far cry from the 1950's kit with uranium and a geiger counter!
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Anything is harmful in the hands of MacGyver!
But MacGruber would be blown up before he could do anything with that kit.
Posted by: Amritas at April 11, 2009 08:06 PM (Wxe3L)
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Hmmm...
I guess if my kids spilled the dye & stained my carpet, I might harm them.
If you have gluten sensitivity, maybe the yeast could make you feel bloated?
Sugar...well, that's just the DEVIL, right!?
I'd be interested in knowing what combination of those things would be harmful. I guess the key is 'misused' but I have trouble envisioning that too!
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GW (not Bush!), I think we always used Paas kits in the kitchen which had a tile floor to avoid staining the carpet.
I might harm them
Sounds like
you need a warning label! That's what T-shirts are for ...
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April 09, 2009
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Chuck Z cracks me up...
As we all know, when a veteran runs into a problem, we just pull out the gun we've hidden in our bible and start shooting.
I am still working on my answer to Sis B. I wrote for over an hour this morning, but I need to sit on it a little longer. I am not good at blog assignments: the longer it takes me, the less I like the result. But we'll see what I manage to come up with.
For what it's worth, I'd love to have Sis B write on the same topic: what the role of government is, what powers it should have, etc. Because I don't understand her side any better than she understands mine.
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Thank GOD you're back!!!! I've been checking and re-checking & wondering what you're doing. Phew.
Posted by: Guard Wife at April 09, 2009 07:52 AM (N3nNT)
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Guard Wife -- I am still just entertaining my mama. We have been shopping and running around town, and so I am just not in front of the computer like I normally am.
Posted by: Sarah at April 09, 2009 08:01 AM (TWet1)
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Ditto on what Guard Wife said...yay!
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April 05, 2009
I REALLY DON'T THINK I'M THAT SNARKY
UPDATE: Everyone is giving really good answers. Make sure you still go over and read Sis B's comments section. And if
Chuck Z can craft an answer without using the word "commie," then you can too! If you answer on your own blog, leave a trackback either at Sis B's or here, so we can read them all. I know Sis B said not to just quote people, but I keep going "Yeah, what she said, and what he said!" However, I did give this lots of thought last night before I read anything here and plan to try to answer on my own...as soon as I get home from making more foam houses at work.
Also, I would like to say that I lurve my imaginary friends. I know that many of you disagree with me on several issues -- AirForceWife, Andi, CaliValleyGirl, Mare, etc have all let me know when they do -- but when we boil it down to the essentials, just the basic framework we work under, we are all so similar. And that's why we read each other: we know we have common ground, and the rest is just details. It's also why we seriously need a gulch.
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Anyone want to try to answer Sis B's question?
I know I have a bunch of Republican readers and close friends, but for the life of me I cannot figure out what any of you think about actual issues. It's all hidden behind snark and namecalling and eye rolling and back patting and I seriously, honestly, to my core, want to know what you believe and why. I want to know what you think about how the government is supposed to work. What does a functioning government look like to you? Please, if you care to answer this question, do so without saying words like "libs" or "dems" or hippies, commies, fags, or any derivative thereof. I want to know what, if any, moral authority government should have. What is the government's purpose in relation to the economy? What powers should the government be allowed to have and what should be limited? What is your view of the constitution? What are your beliefs about ALL the amendments within the Bill of Rights, not just the second?
I think that part of what mystifies me about it is the vast chasm between what I hear regular conservatives saying they believe and the type of government that has been established under the guise of conservativism the past 8 years.
I am gonna take a stab at it when I get back home. It seems like a hard task to me, because I will not be able to grant any common ground. To answer this, I will have to start from the beginning and delineate all my premises. Because what's obvious to me is not obvious to a Democrat. Obviously.
On the other hand, it's easy. The government has the authority to do what the Constitution says and nothing more. End of story. (P.S. I completely freaked out a centrist Republican friend here in town in a discussion of education funding by saying that I don't even think there should be a Department of Education. If it's not in the Constitution, I don't want government doing it. That's why Republicans like me have been horrified by many of our own politicians. We see them as Democrat Lite instead of a true alternative.)
I will try to formulate my thoughts on the drive home. Husband, you start thinking too, because this will have to be a collaborative effort in order for it to be done right.
(And, keep in mind that my comments section is plain awful, so if you start a long comment here, for your sanity, please copy to the clipboard before you post it. Because nine times out of ten, it will disappear. I know this. I am working on moving and was going to do it right about the time I went crazy. I will get to it soon, I promise.)
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Thank you and I look forward to the discussion! Normally I would be looking for a debate, but I'm too tired for that these days. I really just want to know what you think. Travel safely!
Posted by: Sis B at April 05, 2009 09:22 AM (GFl+S)
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I am not a Republican
because so many Republicans are, as you put it, "Democrat Lite".
Your premise is that the Constitution sets the limits of government.
A question for you and those on your side: Does it still make sense to adhere to an 18th century document plus amendments in the 21st century? Can't blind traditionalism be dangerous?
(I have my own answers, but I'd like to hear what others have to say.)
A question for your opponents: Is the Constitution too constricting? What extra powers does the government need, and why? Or is the Constitution already sufficient? Is the Right misinterpreting it, and if so, how?
I've noticed that people on both the Right and Left claim to be the true heirs of the Founding Fathers. This reveals a shared premise: a belief that the Founding Fathers more or less embody the ideal. But one must be careful, as iconic associations can be crutches: e.g., "I am right because I
think some famous person would agree with me" or "I am right because I
think my beliefs are in accordance with some famous document". Take away those crutches. Forget the glory of the Founding Fathers and their writings. Are your arguments valid for today? Can you convince someone who has never heard of the Founding Fathers or the Constitution that your ideas are the ones America needs? Without relying on the emotional appeal of the past, can you demonstrate that you are objectively correct?
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BTW, the "you" in my comment above referred to Sarah, not Sis B.
Thanks to Sis B for asking good questions! We may have answered these before, but they are always worth re-answering, as our answers can change over time. Mine certainly have ...
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BTW, the "you" in my comment above referred to Sarah, not Sis B.
Thanks to Sis B for asking good questions! We may have answered these before, but they are always worth re-answering, as our answers can change over time. Mine certainly have.
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Absolutely looking forward to this...
Posted by: Sarah's Pinko Commie Friend at April 05, 2009 12:09 PM (4bitt)
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I don't know . My ultra conservative friends seem to know exactly how to "fix" things as do my liberal friends, but I just don't know anymore.
Sorry I can't be of help.
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Darn, I was all set to use the word hippie-commie.

I am a reformed Republican who can't bear to be a Democrat, so that leaves me as an Independent.
I believe the government should do as little as possible. They should listen to what the people want, not what they think is best for us. (Can you say 90% NO votes as far as public input on the original TARP funds, yet they still voted it through)
Politicians are in it for themselves and their buddies. The little people will continue to take a screwing until we stand up and vote out the people who do not do as their constituents want.
But I'm not holding my breath.
Posted by: meadowlark at April 05, 2009 02:39 PM (+7zhB)
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The Constitution itself is a doctrine that is vague. What powers the government have largely depend on your interpretation of the constitution. The two extreme views are: 1) Broad scope of powers that marginally relate to commerce and the general welfare. 2) Minimalistic view that creates a mere truism of the elastic cause, and limits the commerce power to only a narrow view of interstate commerce (just the journey for example). Anything in between would lead to a debate over the elastic clause, or the degree to which Congress can regulate interstate commerce.
A conservative, economically speaking, and this is my opinion, would look to the free market as a base, and only intervene in instances where either positive or negative externalities need addressing. Education +, pollution -. I'll give you more if you find this insightful.
You could make the argument that although the constitution gives our government power we shouldn't exercise it because it would lead to a bad outcome, i.e. not pareto optimal (or any other example of what you could argue is not a good outcome).
Posted by: John Limberakis aka Econotics at April 05, 2009 05:34 PM (xoTm3)
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On the founding fathers debate:
This is relevant if you are an orginalist... but even then you had two competing camps: 1 - Hamilton and broad powers (banks, bonds, programs etc) and 2 - anti-federalists, better known as Jeffersonians who favored extremely limited federal government. They passed the Constitution as well thinking it would be used for their concept of limited government. The federalist papers are also a mixed bag.
In analyzing public policy I tend not to care about factors such as these - whether or not our founders knew what was best is a mildly amusing premise - after all it was our founding fathers who compromised on "universal suffrage" and found it in their wisdom to judge slaves and freed slaves as 3/5th people. I base my opinions on principles like GDP growth, economic soundness, and freedom. I suppose the most important power the founders gave us is to govern, in a democratic-republican fashion, how we see fit.
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To Sis B:
Conservative is a blurred term now-a-days. If you base your definition of what is conservative on Bush, or a Southern Republican, you are socially conservative (not favoring social freedoms - forget abortion here temporarily) and economically a mixed bag. Southern Republicans favored big government from 2000-2006 when they lost power. They are a coalition of the religious right, the dwindling number of Reagan Democrats, and businesses. The coalition is falling apart... Many conservatives did not approve of the expansion of big government during 2000-2006 but were complacent in it.
I think the new, not neo, conservative is like me, a Western Republican. Socially libertarian (Except perhaps for abortion) and economically responsibly libertarian.
I'd love to post later on my beliefs but I wanted to get those three posts on the table first. Frame the perspective if you will...
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I think that this has to be answered on two levels. The unemotional intellectual level is all well and good - and I want to hear it! - but in my opinion, reverence for the Constitution is the only thing standing between America and European (or Hawaiian) style socialism. If you want to see what America looks like without this reverence, look at what's happening in America's universities:
http://www.rishon-rishon.com/archives/071696.php
The natural inclination of most people is that when there is a problem, government should DO SOMETHING, or at least TRY. Nobody respects the importance of Organic Systems
http://www.rishon-rishon.com/archives/031769.php
They magically "just work" and nobody gets any credit. When people live with them, as they do with capitalism, to the extent that we have it, they just take for granted all the good stuff and want to "fix" the stuff they don't like.
At the most abstract level, government should be in charge of the laws which create the right kind of organic system. I am not a "real" libertarian because I don't think that the absence of government means capitalism. The absence of government means Somalia. Capitalism, like socialism, is a government creation - just a different kind of creation, one created by laws, not bureaucracy.
In addition to setting up the capitalistic system, I would add to government responsibility functions that capitalism doesn't solve well (or at all): Defense, the courts, roads, the electricity grid, etc. Even in these cases, government should be kept to a minimum by contracting out parts of these services that can be effectively provided by the free market. This is the area where things get blurry, and I am willing to investigate and debate where, exactly, the line should be drawn.
I am also in favor of the government getting involved with social welfare. I am not willing (at least in rich countries) to let people die in the streets because they made bad choices, or because of circumstances beyond their control. I think that these services can usually be provided by the free market, with government getting involved in the form of vouchers.
Finally, I do think that the government should subsidize education. This, too, should be provided in the form of vouchers, to let the free market provide it in the most efficient way, and provide parents with as many choices as possible.
Having said all that, the US Constitution deals with very few of these issues. Mostly, what it deals with is the division of power. The US has three levels of government: local (not provided for by the constitution), state, federal; and three branches of government: executive, legislature, and judiciary. When the US Constitution was written, democracy was not at all taken for granted, and the most important question to the founders was how to keep a dictator (or monarch) from taking power. Their solution was to disperse power as widely as possible. I don't think that there's anything in the Constitution which prevents European-style socialism in America.
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I have lots to say about this (you know I do), but I'm still exhausted from this weekend.
And I'm sorry, Sarah. I just can't agree with you on Rambo. I can't. I'm glad you're willing to look past that and remain friends on our common ground.
Posted by: airforcewife at April 06, 2009 04:27 AM (Fb2PC)
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I just wanted to say that in my answer there was a typo...I said something like in the best of all situations you would live in another country...I meant county...(see in my best of all worlds it would be even more regional than state). I was talking to the hubs about it last night, and he said he thinks there shouldn't be public schools either, but there should be public funding for education, it should just all go through the voucher system...I liked that idea.
Posted by: CaliValleyGirl at April 06, 2009 04:30 AM (irIko)
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Got my response up. Just in case the trackback didn't work here it is...
http://www.unliberaledwoman.com/?p=1278
Posted by: BigD78 at April 06, 2009 12:53 PM (W3XUk)
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Seriously, do you have any idea how hard that was to write without using "commies, fags, and libtards?"
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HARUMPH
The rejuvenating weekend I have been looking forward to has been
somewhat marred...
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ALL I HAVE TIME FOR TODAY IS A LINK
Beth's Contradictory Brain:
Getting It Out
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Wow. Never thought I'd get directed to a gay military couple's website. Out, at least on the web. Odd. It takes a very big risk with DADT.
I'm not passing any judgment, but wow. Risky. Especially since a brief perusal of the page gave me the name of her "spouse", the fact that she's going to BOLC with a report date of this week, she's part Chinese, born on 25 March, and branched MI. That could get narrowed down REALLY fast.
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LINKS
An inspired line from
Mark Steyn:
You can live as free men, with all the rights and responsibilities and vicissitudes of fate that that entails. Or you can watch your society decay and die before your eyes — as England, once the crucible of freedom, dies a little with every day.
And an awesome article about my favorite.
In unusually blunt language, Netanyahu said of the Iranian leadership, “You don’t want a messianic apocalyptic cult controlling atomic bombs. When the wide-eyed believer gets hold of the reins of power and the weapons of mass death, then the entire world should start worrying, and that is what is happening in Iran.”
You know, every time I swoon over Netanyahu, I think about the funny exchange on South Park when Cartman tries to get the girls to scream and squeal over his new boy band:
CARTMAN: Let's go crazier than that! I mean, you have to act like it's freakin' Leonardo Di Caprio!
BEBE: We wouldn't give a rat's ass if Leonardo Di Caprio came walking past us.
THE OTHER GIRLS: Yeah.
CARTMAN: Fine! Who would you go crazy for?
THE GIRLS: ...Matt Lauer.
Heh.
[Both via Boxenhorn]
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Paul Reynaud--who became Prime Minister of France just prior to the German invasion--said in 1940:
"People think Hitler is like Kaiser Wilhelm. The old gentleman only wanted to take Alsace-Lorraine from us. But Hitler is Genghis Khan."
In 2006, Ralph Peters--the writer and former army intelligence officer--said:
"One of the most consistently disheartening experiences an adult can have today is to listen to the endless attempts by our intellectuals and intelligence professionals to explain religious terrorism in clinical terms, assigning rational motives to men who have moved irrevocably beyond reason. We suffer under layers of intellectual asymmetries that hinder us from an intuititive recognition of our enemies."
See my post
the face of the enemy.
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NO EXPLANATION, BUT I'LL TRY
Since I am so open on my site, it must seem like I say everything here. But I don't. Sometimes I freely show my weaknesses; other times I combat my sadness by hiding it behind sarcasm or the lessons I've learned. But I kept from you the fact that I was straight-up
broken for a while. I had some of the hardest days of the last decade of my life, which is why I had to silence my head.
I didn't want to let on how bad things were because I was embarrassed. I was embarrassed that I wasn't coping well, that I was crying constantly, that I was unable and unwilling to leave the house, that I thought that things would be better if I rolled over and grabbed the loaded gun that was a mere arm's reach away from my bed. But I am doing much better now. I really think I had a minor form of postpartum depression and that my problems were hormonal instead of emotional. I am feeling much better, and while I still choke up thinking about what happens if Baby #4 also dies, I am past the worst of things.
I only told a handful of Real Life folks about this baby. One lady I told was the leader of my knitting group. And when I sent out an email that the baby had died, she asked why I couldn't go to a different doctor or see a specialist in the nearby metropolis.
And her email irritated me.
You all know how much I hate my doctor and how I have indeed considered seeking a second opinion elsewhere. Her email was not at all offensive, but the timing just hit me wrong. My first thought was, "Do you not think I am smart enough to have thought of that on my own?" My second was, "Do you not think I am capable of managing my own care?" She implied neither of those, but that was how I mentally responded.
The friends I have who have gone through infertility and loss, they all seem to echo the idea that no advice is good advice. I guess I haven't done a good job of explaining how perfectly reasonable advice can just kill you if you feel it comes at the wrong time or from the wrong person.
It was not my knitting friend's fault, and nor is she a stranger to struggle: she's a recent cancer survivor, one who still has wispy short hair. But I resented her advice nonetheless at the moment she gave it.
When you already feel like a failure, it is difficult to accept anything that smacks of the slightest criticism. Even if it's sound advice, even if it's factually accurate, whatever. It hurts to feel like someone is saying you're not competent enough to find the right doctor, you're not smart enough to google a bit and learn about blood clotting, and yes, even you're not emotionally strong enough to "adjust your reasoning" and try to develop a different meaning of life.
It also hurts when you pride yourself on having a healthy dose of perspective, when you constantly remind yourself of how life could be worse -- my husband could be dead, I could lose a living child, I could never have met my husband in the first place -- to feel like someone is saying that you lack perspective. This is me we're talking about, me. You know me, you have five years of my thoughts. Do you really not think that when I am lying there wanting to shoot myself, that I think of how long Heidi has lived without Sean, how Mare's friends only had their baby for 24 hours, how I have friends who are my age and older who have never married and may never get to find out if they have fertility problems? I do this to myself enough; I don't need to be reminded of it. Or at least I sure didn't the other day when I was already a mental disaster.
And maybe that doesn't make sense to people who are content right now, or whose human chorionic gonadotropin is at zero, but that's the way it feels when you are suffering.
I'm not upset because none of you had any way of knowing how bad things were. Because I didn't tell you. Because I was embarrassed that I was being weak. I was embarrassed that my head was a jumble, that I wanted everyone to go away and leave me alone...but also sending flowers was nice. I wanted to push you away but I wanted you to resist. That's some hormonal nonsense right there. I felt like such a woman for a while.
But my husband handled me beautifully, being understanding and nice and exclaiming gently in frustration, "But I don't know what right looks like!"
And renting Henry Poole Is Here for me. That was great timing.
So I'm better, and I'm technically back. But my mother is visiting and the whole family is headed to SpouseBUZZ Live this weekend, so blogging is still gonna be sparse.
But I'm back.
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Posted by: Lucy at April 01, 2009 07:32 AM (0nTD7)
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I cannot wait to give you a huge hug this weekend...I hope Teh Mr. Grok won't be jealous.

Love you!
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Glad you're back.
When you already feel like a failure, it is difficult to accept anything that smacks of the slightest criticism.
Good advice for many different situations.
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Posted by: Padraig at April 01, 2009 09:18 AM (47xDn)
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*applauds*
Bravo Sarah. I love your complete honesty. And you're right... I have felt that way and didn't quite articulate or understand why I just didn't want anyone to
say anything... but I did want
something.
Glad to see you pick yourself back up again. Hopefully this "picking back up" will be a good reminder if you feel low again. We all go through it. Its called being Human.
Posted by: T at April 01, 2009 10:27 AM (KV0YP)
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I've admired you since the first day I read your blog and more so now. I loved meeting you in person last year at SBL and am looking forward to seeing you this weekend.
Safe travels.
Posted by: Susan at April 01, 2009 10:32 AM (4aKG6)
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*welcome back hugs* So glad to "see" you again. :-)
Posted by: kannie at April 01, 2009 10:42 AM (iT8dn)
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I wouldn't give you advice because I have none for the situation you are in...other than to say, I have been there myself. Somedays it is just easier to stay in the house and not answer the phone because it is just to exhausting to have to talk.
I am glad you are back.
Posted by: Judy at April 01, 2009 10:43 AM (uguBi)
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dear lord let this comment go thru. Really your comment thingy hates me. But anyways, so glad your back and feeling somewhat better. Perspective is one thing, but lose is lose and it still hurts. Even with perspective there is still a sting.
Enjoy your family visit and spousebuzz!
Posted by: the mrs. at April 01, 2009 11:23 AM (NJQf+)
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I love you Sarah. Never met you, hardly ever commented on your blog, and you don't know me from Adam, but I just love you to death. You are a beautiful soul, and I am thankful that you can share so eloquently. My heart breaks for you now, but I am hopeful for your future. Welcome back.
Posted by: RC at April 01, 2009 01:05 PM (NIWH+)
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Och, your terrible pain was so evident - I didn't dare write a thing. I've been in that horrible place before and it really is a mental maze...you wend your way through it.
Congrats on having a husband who knew to hold your hand and congrats to you for being so honest about it all.
Enjoy each other...
Posted by: LauraB at April 01, 2009 01:33 PM (Jbj8P)
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When you already feel like a failure, it is difficult to accept anything that smacks of the slightest criticism.
Thank you for explaining that, and more. I wish I'd thought of that without you having to say it, for I would've known what NOT to say. And now I won't say you shouldn't have been embarrassed about your emotional state, as that would be the pot calling the kettle black (as in, I am accused of being far too hard on myself, too--maybe we can just be to hard on ourselves together, haha!).
And maybe that doesn't make sense to people who are content right now.
It makes sense to me, and so I offer my apologies for not having been more thoughtful or sensitive.
And I'm so glad to hear how wonderful your husband has been. Of course, if you picked him he must've been good...
Posted by: FbL at April 01, 2009 09:33 PM (HwqvF)
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Yay. Your blog is usually the first one in my favorite blogs folder I click on, and I have missed it. Glad to see you back.
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And that, dear cousin, is exactly why i haven't said *anything* for the past few days or weeks. i know that there was nothing that i could say that would be right. I probably should have said, i'm thinking of you, a few more time but i think i've said that a hundred times and you already know that. i did wonder how the husband was dealing with all this so it's good to know he's ok. i hope you enjoy some peace with your family

and i love you.
Posted by: kate at April 02, 2009 08:10 AM (JIGe1)
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You can only imagine how many different times i have wanted to write an email and say a few words of comfort but have been afraid to. Because I can only imagine in my way what you have gone through and how thoroughly you have been beaten down by events you cannot control. I do not know how you have kept yourself sane. I do applaud you and wish you all the best. And a better dr. ;D
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I've just re-read this a week later now that things have (I hope) calmed down a bit. I just want to clarify one thing:
It hurts to feel like someone is saying ... you're not emotionally strong enough to "adjust your reasoning" and try to develop a different meaning of life.
I never, ever meant to imply or to say that I thought you aren't strong enough to adjust your reasoning. If I thought you weren't strong enough, I certainly wouldn't have suggested that you try to do so. If I had known you were contemplating your gun, I certainly would not have said anything at all. If I thought you weren't competent or any of the things you said above, frankly, I probably wouldn't be reading this blog.

What I said, I would say to my own sister if she had said to me what you posted. If that gets me a lot of "I'm frickin' glad I'm not your sister then" from people here, so be it. I never intended to hurt you more, road to hell, good intentions, etc.
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Anwyn -- I know you didn't mean to, but that's why I wanted to write and explain that all these little things that people don't mean to be hurtful sometimes are, if they're taken at the wrong moment. Thank you for writing back.
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QUIET MY HEAD
This blog has been responsible for some of the best experiences of my life. I wouldn't have any of my close friends without this blog. Sometimes it brings me such joy and comfort. But it is also responsible for some of the most stressful moments of my life. It sucks to lose a baby. It sucks even worse to hear that you deserved it, that you talk about it too much, that you're self-absorbed or just plain wrong for your feelings about it. That's hard to take, and I'm starting to wonder if it's really healthy for me. I'm tired of lying in bed at night losing sleep over something that I or someone else said on the blog.
I'm shutting off the computer for a while. Truly off: no email, no Facebook, no blog. I need to quiet the noise in my head for a while.
I'm not doing well and I need to find a way to cope. I'm gonna try silence for a few days.
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I hope you know that you have my support and prayers. I wish you the most healing of silences.
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Posted by: Lucy at March 28, 2009 05:17 PM (NPbK+)
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Sending lots of cyber hugs and prayers. I hope the silence quiets the noise.
Posted by: HomefrontSix at March 28, 2009 08:49 PM (RlqpK)
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Im so sorry that you have had to suffer not just physical pain but also the emotional beating that some feel they have the right to hit you with.
you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: orlane at March 29, 2009 03:45 AM (KEe63)
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It's hard to know what to say...but the people who are the most blessed are often the most inconsiderate because of their blessings. They don't know how lucky they are. It's a pain in the ass paradox. But say what you feel, because suppressing it won't help. There are many of us who know what you are going through, and understand.
Posted by: Mrs. Who at March 29, 2009 08:23 AM (x4sNM)
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Sending you and your husband love and prayers. I hope the silence heals. I think you are one of the bravest woman I've read on the webs.
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Posted by: Amy at March 30, 2009 05:08 AM (I9LMv)
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Sarah - I am sorry you are receiving nasty comments, etc. Not sure how anyone could say "you deserve this". Hoping you are feeling better.
Keri
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I am so sorry that you have had to deal with people who make you feel even worse than you already do. I have been reading your blog for a while now but have never commented. You are one of the strongest women I've ever "known", and do not deserve to feel the pain you are experiencing, let alone any additional pain caused by others. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily, and my heart aches for you.
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JEALOUS
I'd like to add something to my
grokking post from yesterday.
I am not better off for having this wisdom. If I could give it all back, I would. Without question. If I could magically go back in time and have a baby when I first tried to, without difficulty or heartache, I would do it in a heartbeat. I don't want to be wise and well-versed in life's lessons; I want a two year old instead.
I am, quite simply, gut-gnawingly jealous of people who can control their family planning. I am jealous of their naivete and their happiness. I don't want them to be wise like me; I want to be naive like them. I envy them, in a way that is entirely unhealthy.
I have also learned that dwelling on this doesn't do me any good either. It just makes me more insane and unfulfilled.
The meaning of life, if you ask me, is to create life. It's to pass on your genes and your values to another generation. And I haven't been able to do that. I cannot participate in the meaning of life. I can't begin to describe how that feels.
I don't want you to have trouble getting pregnant. I don't want you to not have children. I don't want you to get anywhere near knowing what it feels like.
I just want what you have.
So much so that I don't even know how to deal with it anymore.
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I totally get this. What drives me even crazier are all the people who get pregnant "without even trying." So not fair. Anyway, won't rant. I'm with you though.
Posted by: Beth at March 27, 2009 12:48 PM (qkeSl)
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It's to pass on your genes and your values to another generation.
And the genes of the one you love ... and the values you share with the one you love ...
It's not just about the meaning of your life, but his too.
That's what makes this doubly sad.
I wish you didn't have to know ...
Posted by: Amritas at March 27, 2009 01:24 PM (+nV09)
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I find this difficult to write, I want you to be aware of that up front in case people here may be offended. That is not my intent. My intent is just to offer a different perspective and maybe with it a bit of hope or a tiny spark of contentment.
The idea that the meaning of life is to create life is depressing, and even oppressive, to me. (Believe me, it galls me to use that left-wing buzzword, but there it is.) If that's the meaning of life, then what is the meaning of yours and your husband's sacrifice of his time and effort and possibly his health or, God forbid, his life on deployment? If that's the meaning of life, what does it mean that through the unforeseen horror of 9/11, I was unwittingly the means of getting friends of mine to return to church, where they stayed for several years as music directors? If that's the meaning of life, what does it mean that of a set of four brothers, my ancestor was the only one to return alive from the Civil War? Are the lives and deaths of his brothers meaningless because they had no descendants? More obscure, certainly, since they had nobody to remember them fully, but surely not meaningless.
I should say, it's not the *only* meaning of life. I love my son and to a certain extent I am defined by him now, but that's not everything I am or everything my life means. I firmly believe it's vital for people of good works, good values, sound mental capacity (don't giggle too much; my family's going through its own drama at the moment, which is why I toss that in there), etc. to reproduce, but it doesn't follow that if you don't, those good works, good values, sound mental capacity, etc., are wasted or useless. What is the meaning of those hours you spend knitting preemie caps if you can never fulfill the meaning of life?
I firmly believe that reproduction is an aspect of the meaning of life. But if it comes to that, there are aspects of the meaning of life in which I will never participate--for one, making the world safer for other people to have more meaningful lives, as your husband does and as you do too. There are others--other aspects of the meaning of life in which I so far have not gotten to participate. And I do understand that it sucks. I just think that the more you focus on this aspect as if it is the whole meaning, the more despair you are likely to produce, and that worries me for you.
I am so sorry that this baby's prospects failed and died. I haven't had the words so I haven't said anything. I am thinking of you.
Posted by: anwyn at March 27, 2009 08:49 PM (dzxw9)
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Beautifully said, anwyn. I wrote an email to Sarah earlier today that tried to say the same thing, but it was not even remotely as well-communicated as what you have written. You said it exactly right. Like you, it worried me to see the despair such a line of reasoning can produce, but you did a beautiful job of arguing against it. Thank you.
Posted by: FbL at March 27, 2009 08:59 PM (HwqvF)
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Yeah, cuz we all know that arguing against me is exactly what I need right now...
I don't want to be rude either. I appreciate you two sharing your perspective. I read both and I understand what you mean and why you disagree. I specifically wrote that it's "the meaning of life if you ask me" because I know that what I was saying is not everyone's meaning of life. I avoiding writing about it throughout three miscarriages because I know what I said is controversial. There are many definitions, and I encourage you to decide for yourself what you think the meaning is. And I won't try to convince you otherwise.
But I didn't know how to illustrate the depth of my anguish without saying exactly what this means to me. For me, this is my purpose for being here. That is why it's so hard for me. I couldn't care less about having a baby to snuggle or take photos of; for me, it's the loss of the grand sense of purpose for my life. I now know that at least two people disagree with me, but really, I don't think you can succeed to change my view of what's important in this world.
I'm sorry if I don't find much satisfaction in the thought of being on my deathbed someday all alone with no family around me and thinking, "Gee, I sure am glad I knitted all that stuff for other people's babies..."
I mean no disrespect to people who don't have children. I never said that this is THE meaning of life, only the meaning that I have come to see for my life.
Posted by: Sarah at March 28, 2009 04:25 AM (TWet1)
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only the meaning that I have come to see for my life
Yes, and it upsets those of us who care about you to see that your thinking that way is contributing to the pain you are feeling. I'm terribly sorry to see that what I said contributed to that pain rather than eased it, because my intention was exactly the opposite and nothing more.
Posted by: Sarah at March 28, 2009 06:24 AM (HwqvF)
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Oh, how weird! That was supposed to be me on the comment above, not Sarah.
Posted by: FbL at March 28, 2009 06:25 AM (HwqvF)
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Yes, FbL has put the nail on the head of what I was saying--"the meaning of life" is a piece of reasoning, not a set of feelings about this facet of your life. And as such, the reasoning is flawed. If God created human beings, I don't necessarily know what meaning he intended for humanity, much less each individual, but he didn't create some of them to be meaningless. And if there is no God, then we're completely free to make the meaning of life whatever we want it to be, and for a person who so far has been unsuccessful at procreating to settle on procreation as the full meaning of her life is unreasonable. And while I understand that the reasoning and the feelings are closely entwined, they still aren't the same thing, and I was suggesting that if you could adjust your reasoning, you might be able to assuage some of your pain. I am not saying your pain is wrong or that your feelings are wrong (for the record, nor did I say any of the other things you listed in
your next post). I am saying you will have a choice about whether or not to retain this pain in this precise way--i.e. it's even more painful because it negates the meaning of life--or to look at the pain under a rubric of somewhat different reasoning (one example, what I suggested, that it is not the full meaning of anyone's life, but only one part) and perhaps find some comfort. You aren't a bad person if you let go of a part of the pain--i.e. it seems possible that because you have been trying so hard to meet this goal, it might feel like if you let any of the pain go, it makes what you have gone through worthless, but I don't think that's so. FWIW.
Neither FbL nor I were "arguing against you." FbL specifically said "arguing against IT," which could be either the reasoning or the despair, both of which are bad for you.
I am sorry to have put you on the defensive. I do disagree with your reasoning, but I am again saying that it's just that--the reasoning, not the pain--that I am commenting on.
Posted by: Anwyn at March 28, 2009 07:44 AM (dzxw9)
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Sarah,
I am truly sorry for your loss.
I know the pain - both my daughter and I have been there.
Hang in there...you are in the thoughts of many who are trying to send you strength,
be well
Posted by: Tink at March 28, 2009 07:57 PM (ADv8Q)
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You have never been far from my thoughts and prayers. Nor will you. Do what you have to do, feel what you have to feel. We love you, we support you, and we pray for you no matter what.
Posted by: HomefrontSix at March 28, 2009 08:48 PM (RlqpK)
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What HF6 said.
Sometimes, it's less important to express our own thoughts and more important to just listen.
Posted by: Semper Fi Wife at March 29, 2009 04:07 AM (HdP+f)
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uncloaking here momentarily just to say that I, too, have been watching and caring and praying and hoping for the best. . . . and have 'prescribed' your blog to a family member who has recently had to take that dreadful pill herself for the first time. And to lose her hopes of a baby. . . .
I don't know the 'meaning of life' - perhaps it's something we all spend all our lives trying to figure out.
semper fi
Posted by: queenie at March 30, 2009 04:12 AM (NVT/8)
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You know my thoughts, and that you and your husband are in mine. I am with Homefront Six and especially with Semper Fi Wife on this. This is a time where it is far more important just to listen and offer you quiet and unconditional support.
LW
Posted by: Laughing Wolf at March 31, 2009 05:56 AM (QFjwa)
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I just wanted to say that I know what you meant.
For to me, the meaning of life is indeed to create life. Both figuratively and literally -- nothing gives me greater joy than seeing my husband "come alive" -- but I strongly feel that my life would be incomplete without being able to literally create life.
Right now we are practically and financially unable to support a child. But I still hate every birth control pill I take.
I heard the raw, real, honest truth in that statement, and I know you needed to say it.
(PS - I miss your blog.)
Posted by: TW at April 01, 2009 03:35 PM (qWzEG)
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Just another one of those days where everything goes wrong: it's a training holiday but my husband's company was made to work; had to run an errand for a friend and stood in line forever behind a lady on a cell phone who couldn't decide on a Gatorade flavor; still in pain but can't take meds because I had to go to work, etc. I didn't think it was possible to be in a worse mood today. It was. Remember my nice
new windshield? Not so much anymore.
I give up. Let's go back to bed.
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March 26, 2009
I FINALLY GROK
A person in my life is newly pregnant. An intermediary called me to tell me the news so I'd hear it in person and not through the grapevine. When I realized that this girl was only as pregnant as I was -- 7 weeks -- I remarked that they were not out of the woods yet and said to pass on my congratulations and that I would continue to hope that everything goes well with the pregnancy. The intermediary said, "Well, she
has been to the doctor and everything looks fine." And I, complete cynic about pregnancy that I now am, refrained from reminding this person that I too had a healthy happy 7 week old baby once, a baby that subsequently and unexpectedly died.
And it irked me, irked me that someone could be so naive about pregnancy woes while having been acquainted with me for the past few years. That someone thought that good-to-go at 7 weeks put you in the clear. That this person was so...oh crap...I am not really going to let this word pop into my head, am I?...
flippant.
And all of a sudden, I grokked. I understood what she was feeling when she said that, even if I still disagree that I personally was coming off as flippant. But I also realized that it doesn't really matter, because I am sure this intermediary never would've characterized herself as flippant either.
But it's this naivete with the process, this happy-go-lucky vibe, that's hard to swallow when your own journey has been like dragging and clawing to Mordor. You want other people to have a healthy fear of pregnancy, an inkling that things can go terribly wrong very quickly; you want them to realize that bringing a child into this world, though it seems to happen easily to a great many people, is actually a miracle of engineering and timing. But people who've never suffered just don't have that perspective and never will, no matter how close they are to you or how hard you try to encumber them with your anguish.
They will sound flippant to your ears, no matter what.
What I have learned from this process, and from the whole flippant flap, is that I have to let it pass. I have to let these people be naive. Either they will learn the lesson the hard way, as I did, or they won't and life will turn out happy and jolly for them. But having me rain on their parade doesn't help any of us. It cannot make them understand the suffering that some of us go through to have children. I cannot give them wisdom they are not in a place to understand. It will only make them resent me for not letting them live their own life and learn their own lessons, as I resented her.
But I get it now, two years later. And these are the times when I am happiest as a blogger, when I can document my learning process.
And say that I finally grok.
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DON'T DO THIS
How To Drive Yourself Insane
by Sarah
1) Marry the most wonderful person on the planet. Have everything in common, down to what foods and movies and columnists you like. Never quarrel. Have the happiest homelife imaginable.
2) Save 50% of your income for the first five years of marriage. Never go out to dinner or on vacation. Delay all gratification. Make every decision based on your financial calculator so that you'll have a substantial nest egg.
3) Reach all your financial, professional, and emotional goals. Decide it's finally time for life's most important goal: to become a family.
4) Watch all your babies die and half of your money disappear in the stock market.
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March 25, 2009
WHO WILL POLICE THE PRESS?
I know there are people out there who think that the media is in Republican pockets because it's all owned by big corporations. Really, I have always found that position untenable. I truly can't understand how anyone who listens to the news for ten minutes would possibly think it is right-wing. But those people exist, a constant reminder to me that people can hear the exact same thing and come to completely different conclusions.
But can anyone really defend the media for how they give Democrats a pass on everything? Is it possible to ignore they way Bush was treated vs Obama? I don't think it is.
A link via NRO: Forgetting about AlzheimerÂ’s:
When President Bush and Vice President Cheney claimed that reversing their tax cuts would hurt many small businesses, the fact-checkers of the press zinged them for exaggerating the impact. Most small businesses, they pointed out, would not be affected. Good for the media: Journalists ought to inform the public when their leaders are making false or misleading statements.
But they ought to do so whether the politicians in question are Republicans or Democrats, and whether the claims help liberal or conservative causes. Last night, President Obama said that his liberalized policy on funding for embryonic stem-cell research would aid the search for cures for AlzheimerÂ’s disease. ShouldnÂ’t news outlets have reported that even scientists on ObamaÂ’s side of the issue say thatÂ’s a pipe dream?
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GROUCHY TODAY
You know the problem has burrowed deep in your psyche when you dream about doctors and genetic testing and surrogates.
I am still feeling about the same, but I am going to try to stay off the meds today. I actually have to leave the house to go get my bloodwork done, so we'll see if I can make it.
And then I go to my knitting group to knit for other people's babies, like I always do. Always a bridesmaid...
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